I inhale, deeply breathing in the essence of life, of Mother Earth, of all humanity. My mind and body become completely still. I lean into Garland Pose and a small scent of patchouli surrounds my lean, strong body in size small, stain-free yoga pants, the bottom edges sitting just above my perfectly manicured toenails.
(The above was not actually me, just how I pictured myself practicing yoga before my first class).
I am a Type A person, who rarely makes or takes the time to relax. That caught up with me finally and my doctor recently recommended meditation.
I have a history with meditation, however. When I meditate, I either mentally redo a room in our house, make an unworkably complicated plan for world peace, or fall asleep.
He suggested I try yoga instead.
So, there I was, in the midst of all the nearly immobilized, calm-seeming folk on their personalized yoga mats with their cool-looking yoga sloganed tank tops and yoga pants (finally, I am official! I must admit, I have been wearing their pants under false pretences since childbirth…).
I want to share a bit of my internal conversation during my sixty minutes of calm, peaceful time “practicing” my yoga.
This is my brain on yoga:
–Where is there a space in the back? It is only open up front? Shoot! I have to get here on time next time, whatever the kids pull.
–Downward Dog! Ha! I won’t even make fun of that name, I won’t make a barking noise…and look how good I am at it. Yoga. I got this!
–I think we are out of almond milk. I better put that on my list. Wait, what is everyone else doing?
–Put my right hand on the mat. Easy! Right elbow to left knee, now do what? Do people even bend that way? Oh, look, all those people in the front row do…
–Is that lady looking in the room from the childcare center? I hope it wasn’t one of mine! If I ignore her, maybe she will leave.
–Why is no one else sweating? Seriously, I would love a fan or preferably a Blackberry Mojito right about now!
–I wonder what time it is? Are we close to an hour yet? I think the clock is on the back wall; I will take a quick peak at it. Wait! Where is it? Oh, no, on the front wall…and, busted! (As the instructor smiles at me).
–How are all these other people not only standing on one leg without jumping around to catch their balance, but some are sticking a leg straight out. I missed those muscles at birth!
–Oh my goodness! The lady over there just farted loudly! Thank God my sinuses are clogged and, mostly, THANK GOD it wasn’t me!
–Thanks for giving me the other version of this pose I am already trembling in, and hoping to do a reasonable facsimile of, until we can return to Downward Dog, my new home.